Sunday, October 19, 2008

Why do we have to BE anything?



Zack Kim playing "Fur Elise" by Ludwig von Beethoven

A friend and I had a rather long discussion this morning about her struggles to succeed as a deaf artist. She is one of the finest painters I know, but she has given up painting completely because of the lack of support she feels from a) the hearing world and b) the deaf community.

I feel despair when she talks like this. Why can't she just be an artist instead of a deaf artist? There are plenty of people who can't hear who don't identify as deaf. Most of them, in fact. And there are famous painters who were deaf but who did not present that as their face to the world. Musicians, too. I suppose it's everyone's choice how they want their story to go, but I wonder if we ever would have heard of Beethoven if he had insisted on being identified as a deaf musician? Maybe that's not fair. Beethoven was unique, and he probably would have been recognized as such no matter how he described himself. But maybe he would have wound up traveling with a circus.

Some deaf-themed art that I've seen seems really limited--viewing it is a one-note kind of experience. And some deaf artists produce work of astonishing beauty whether their theme is or is not specifically deaf-related.

Deafness is no freakin picnic. It leaves holes in one's experience of the world. I don't discount for a moment any deaf persons' wish to express their suffering and frustration through painting and drawing. But I think we all forget the universal thump. Just because somebody hears (and that's how human beings are made--to hear with their ears) does not mean they do not suffer deeply and cruelly from something else that they experience as cutting them off from society. At some places and in some times, having red hair would do this (witches! spawn of satan!). Would we then be expected to create and revere red-hair-themed art?

7 comments:

  1. Anonymous2:12 AM

    I think you have only asked half of the question -- why do we have to be something to win someone else's approval? I understand but don't understand your friend the painter. Why isn't it enough to paint for the pleasure of it? If she no longer enjoys it, that's one thing. Then don't do it. True artists seem to have a drive to create that surpasses what others think of them. I'm not sure where pigeon-holing yourself into a category really helps at all.

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  2. Anonymous6:34 AM

    Pigeonholing is the great human sport. As I said, everybody gets to pick their story--or not. Some prefer to erase themselves to the point of not signing even a screen name.....

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  3. Anonymous6:37 AM

    Oops...that was me, Xtreme English, who typed the second comment.

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  4. Anonymous8:38 AM

    Oops. Sorry. I shouldn't do comments when I'm on my Sidekick. I can only do them by choosing Anonymous, but I CAN sign my name. Paula

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  5. Paula: thinking about your take on my question..."why do we have to BE anything [to win approval from others]?" it not just approval of others...it's self-approval, too, don't you think? Anyway, I think I'm going to take my artist friend to see the studio of a man in Georgetown. It's in the 4'x 8' entryway of his building. He does his painting there, and he hangs his work up on cords stretched across the wall opposite some mailboxes. She gets very discouraged being often unemployed, and I think she'd maybe enjoy seeing a happy, productive artist who is making do with what small space he has.

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  6. Anonymous11:35 PM

    It's a good question, and I think self-approval does come into it. I tried pottery for a while. By anyone else's standards, my stuff was not very good -- I could never get the symmetry that is prized... But I really enjoyed it and felt creative doing it. It made ME feel good, even though I knew everyone else turned up their collective noses at it. That feeling must be missing, if it was ever there, from your friend who gave up painting, and that's just sad. Maybe she just needs some time to pass before she gets the "spark" back that makes her want to create. I hope so.
    Paula

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  7. P: my sidekick also has a button for, but does not allow me to complete, the "name/URL" option. just discovered that when i tried to comment on your comment t'other day (see OOPS#1 above)...

    m.e.

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